Apology To Self

I want to apologize to the 5-year-old me,

You dreamt of the stars, but I could never succeed,

I let you down, I failed to soar,

Your aspirations, I could never explore.

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In your innocent eyes, hope did gleam,

But I stumbled, lost in life’s stream.

I wish I could turn back the hands of time,

Guide you to heights, and to your dreams you could climb.

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You deserved magic, skies to roam,

But I left you stranded, far from goal.

Forgive me, little one, for the paths I chose,

I wish I could nurture your dreams, but sometimes life just blows.

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I want to apologize to the 10-year-old me,

You had dreams so vivid, so clear to see,

But I stumbled and faltered, lost in the fray,

Failing to guide you along the right way.

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You aspired to greatness, with passion ablaze,

But I let doubts and fears lead us astray.

Forgive me for dimming your bright burning flame,

I wish I could rekindle your spirit, I could kindle your aim.

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For every moment lost and every tear shed,

For the times I faltered, for the words left unsaid,

I apologize, dear self, with all my heart,

For failing to give your dreams a proper start.